05/20/2026
Hi friends! I just wanted to give you a little update on my life right now as an artist. If you know me personally, then you know I have always struggled with my mental and physical health. I have been going through a pretty dark time lately, and starting this business was a way to give my body the schedule it needed, let me live my life, and hopefully make more money. As time went on my mental health was not getting any better and I decided I had to make a change or I was going to lose my mind. I started therapy, I started going out to bars (no I do not drink I just like the atmosphere and the servers always get tipped very well), and I am forcing myself to spend time alone with myself and find out who I truly want to be. Social media has been something that's been very difficult for me to post on, I cannot explain the exact reason why, it's just not an enjoyable thing for me. I have so many different things that I do and it's hard for one thing to gain attention and then I switch so it can't gain attention etc. I am very hard on myself and I am doing so much work to become a better version of me, but it shows in my business. I want to say I'm sorry for that. I am inconsistent, sometimes unreliable, and I get irritated very easily. This is something I am extremely aware of, not happy with, and am working on changing. It is not who I am at my core. I am known as happy and bubbly and early and reliable. My headspace is one I would not wish on anyone, and I'm going to be completely honest with you guys-but I have been having a hard time doing art lately. I haven't painted, sculpted, crafted, in what seems like months. I don't feel good enough, I don't feel like it's worth it, I don't feel like I will ever be good enough, and I feel like people don't care about art or the process of making it. Ai, social media, pyramid schemes, have all ruined art. Nobody has any money to spend on art. Nobody wants to spend money on art and it has lost all of its meaning because you can just buy it at a store for cheaper. I get it though. I want to want to do art again. For myself, for others. So all in all, I'm trying to figure things out still. I want to be happy, I want to make money, and I want to make others happy. That's really all I want in life.
I also want you all to know I am giving my all right now. This is everything I can muster at this moment. Me going out with friends is a distraction to me, a way to not think about how much I miss my cat every night. I need friends. So it might seem irresponsible to a normal person, I am genuinely trying my best and I hope you can only see it from my view. I love you all so very much and am so thankful for you love, understanding, and support. Please feel free to reach out, I know a lot of people are going through similar things. Have a wonderful day! Hope Beeson
