06/02/2024
Working on a long pending painting that I learnt from Dr. Esra Alhamal's course in Domestika. The paper is huge, a little bigger than the usual A2 size. I had to clear my desk and get some free space. Same thing for the mind as well.
I realised I have spent many years trying to achieve precision working on progressively smaller patterns. All those A5 and A4 size paintings lie in boxes, only to perplex me whenever I happen to see them. "How did I do all of these?" That's a huge body of work but nothing more than that. Some awe, honestly—a little pat on my own back but a lot of regret and frustration. My own excuses have throttled my creativity. So, as expressed in this beautiful song, I feel fortunate to have got moments where I can be true myself, in touch with my creativity.