05/17/2026
Please God bless you all , feel better Evie
I've had over 20 dogs in my life, not counting foster dogs. I've taken care of thousands of dogs as a veterinarian over decades.
I've experienced dog loss personally and professionally. Each one is different bc my relationship with individual dogs is unique, and the circumstances surrounding the loss is also unique to the dog, the illness, and the time in my life.
My dogs have had a variety of terminal illnesses that have eventually taken them. I've treated kidney failure over months and years, and cancer to lesser and more degrees. My own dogs have all lived long lives well into their teens. I usually resign myself to the inevitable loss in a rational way, although anticipatory grief is always looming.
When I treat my dogs for illness, I prioritize their quality of life and their comfort. In general, the purpose of treating is to prolong their lives in a good way. Fluids and meds for a dog with kidney failure can give them long periods of feeling better.
Meds, supplements, and environmental changes for arthritis allow an old dog to move around with less pain.
These types of illness are relatively predictable re time frame and what will happen to the dog as their disease progresses.
Treating my little dog Evie for lymphoma has been a whole new ball game. Thankfully she has felt very good until a week ago. In fact, she had not had a bad day even after treatments with chemo.
The thought of her getting sick has been extremely painful for me bc I've known it was going to happen. I've been dreading the day she would feel sick. I've given her the chemo drugs bc she has continued to feel well until last week.
Now we are at a that turning point where she had her first really tough week following a new treatment. She was starting to feel sick and her lymph nodes were enlarging. Her reaction has been severe but her nodes did shrink down through the week, until yesterday.
She feels tired and uncomfortable. She slept through a school visit on Tuesday but did enjoy the visit on Friday.
I'm dreading her decline. The advice, "enjoy her for as long as possible" is not helpful.
We're going to a library event today which thankfully Evie will enjoy!💔